I’m alone now
except for the ringing in my ears
like somehow the silence can become too loud.
I’m running water now
Just for some background noise
Hoping it helps me out
With my hands on the mirror
I’m looking into my eyes
What do I see?
That broken person in my reflection
Doesn’t look like me
The memories come on
While trying to stay strong
But I feel like I’m dying from disease
I think to myself like,
Maybe this is it
My heart will pound so hard
It’ll race right out my chest
Somebody get these fucking images out of my head
Back to back
From staring at some messages
to yelling at my ex
From sitting in a court room
to crying in my bed when he left
I swear to god this demon just really wants me dead
If my heart doesn’t kill me now
I’ll die too young from stress.
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